Masks off



It's been long
So long carrying this load
Load of pain
Pain of my dad leaving me
Pain of a misstep in studies
Shame of failing
Heart ache of heartbreak
Feeling of unworthiness
It's been heavy

But,
I've listened and seen
How it has slowed me down
Blinded me from light
From the future at hand
And I'm tired of wearing this masks
To hide how i feel
To cover the tears i shed
The bleeding wounds
I'm tired of it all
It drains me

I miss much life
I wanna let it all go
I want to live
I'm done surviving
It's time to face my demons
It's time to talk to my inner self
No need to cover my eyes
It's time to peel the mask off
Throw it away and fight
One last tear
One last fight
Arms on arms
The pain i feel it's not meant to stay
Dad i forgive you wherever you're
My exe's i forgive you
And wish you happiness
Dear self I'm sorry for the pain
It's time to move on
Its to live
Masks off.


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