RIP TO MY FEELINGS

Sometimes wrong choices brings us to the right places

I have learnt not to follow different type of chases

I'm that person everyone replaces after a while

I'm always sweet others are like bile

The worst feeling is wanting to scream and don't want to be heard at the same time 

I wanted you to win even when we were on bad terms

I don't know why I was a fool under your charms

They said self love is the beginning of love

I lack my senses my goodness is all I have

I overthink because I notice everything

I gave you all I had you didn't give me a thing

I loved you at your worst you left me at mine

How do I keep giving you chances to be my wine

I'm intoxicated by you am doomed like hell's member

I hate getting flashbacks from the things I don't want to remember

The worst way you can leave someone is in silence

It's hard but I'll live through your absence

My eyes met many eyes but only got lost in yours

When you were sick I did everything to be your many cures

We both said I love you but the difference was that I didn't lie

You left me in the cold to wallow in pain and die

Dying to talk to you but Afraid to text

You said am nothing you are going to the next

Am not attractive but I can make you smile

How is it that I give you my world but you are so hostile

Tired of wasting my efforts on people who don't deserve it

You cut me deep slowly bit by bit

If you could read my mind you'll be in tears

If I could have you I know I'd be in cheers

Never forget who helped you when everyone else was making excuses

Every word you said was full of abuses

You May not be perfect but you are all I want

I may be slower but I speak in bold font

I don't have a lot of friends but I know alot of people

I could have shouted your name ontop of a steeple

If I start treating you the way you treat me,you'd hate me

I know you feel happy now but God got me

In the end I only have myself

So am heading and aiming for the top shelf

Everybody has a chapter they don't want to read aloud

I have a nature that no one is allowed 

To have someone out there feels better because now you don't exist

Nowadays I walk  over things I used to trip over

My desire for Superman syndrome

My desire for kryptonite has changed my chromosome

No one stayed when I was at my lowest

But am sure speed also comes to the slowest

It's okay to be sad after making the right decision

My life with you is over no more revision

I grew up without sharing my problems to my parents

I guess that's why I have so many emotional accidents

Stop making yourself available for people who don't ever priotize you

I have known that now I can be my own boo

She was like the moon,part of her was always hidden away

To hurt me she'd always find a way

Everyone is going through something you don't see

And I am something that you'll never be

Honest.

Am still healing from the things I don't speak about.

I take myself to sci-fi themed parks in my thoughts in or out

I wish I could disappear like I never existed

But what if I had the power against you I could have resisted

I gave up on you,not because I don't care but because you don't

I became dangerous when I learnt how to control my feeling

My name is tagged with anime,EDM music and 8D sounds from nightcore

I'm learning the best way to stay hardcore

Be proud of your kind heart,not everyone had it

I don't care anymore cause when I did,I actually got hurt

Down to earth but still above you

Vibe alone until you are valued

I still believe in love,I just have a hard time believing in people

Why can't things that are good stay?

Not together but still connected

I always wonder how many times we forgive someone just because we don't want to lose them

The best revenge in no revenge at all

Once you realize you want the best, losing people doesn't matter anymore

If you really got a pure heart,you gonna win in the end.Remember that

I have what it takes to stand up for myself

But I always hate where my thoughts take me

I don't like you and I don't hate you

But am going home where I have my space

Space to grow without you.To you am dead ,to me you are gone

I don't want to see you or imagine your kiss 

But am going to the graveyard to bury my pain

Am off to the deadlands to declare

"Rest In Peace to my feelings"